Mwahahaha.

I am really depressed. A psychiatrist said I was. However I didin't want to tell about it.
I read my previous journal entry and I decided to add something more. And this is the "something".

I'm working with oil pastels which I have been given by my Beloved Dariusz. Am I good at this? Time will tell. The translation hasn't begun yet. Maybe I'm too lazy. Why should I translate something for no-one? No-one reads it. No one cares. Again.
Why do I feel insecure? My Beloved spends his time with his cousin named Natalia. He was very happy about her ariiving. It makes me a bit worried. Maybe she isn't his cousin. Maybe she is prettier than me. I can't stand the thought he's spending time with a beautiful girl. I need a friend...

Another issue I have to explain is a manga issue. I have always hated manga and anime. But 8 months earlier was Christmas and 1st of January, the first day of new year. It's a day when people swear they will do (or they won't be doing) something. So I promised my sister I would watch one or two Naruto Sippuuden episodes with her (damn New Year's resolution!). Then I did what I promised. I watched first episode... second... third... and I didin't even noticed I've watched all the episodes. I started to like it. However I still hate their manga eyes and all of this manga style (did I mention that I especially hate their eyes?). But I like the story. Story about the boy who had a dream. Who has always been alone. Story about heroes and villains. About friendship, love and hatred. I fell in love with that magical world of hundreds of charcters. Now I could say: I like Naruto. But I want to be myself. And I will still do my art in my way.

Maybe I do shit. But this is MY shit.

Post Scriptum: the title is a quote by Daron Malakian. I like those words. They perfectly suit this entry.

Post Scriptum 2: the cousin is really a cousin. I think I'm getting sick.

Lady Crivia Adriana Maria Neverhood the sorceress.